Legacy Code (8 page)

What else did his crew members say that Dritan hadn’t shared? Did he say these things, too? Era opened her mouth to ask, but Dritan held up a hand.

“My crew. Or, what’s left of my crew,” he said. “We got transfer orders today.”

Era’s pulse quickened at the anguish in his voice.

“They’re sending us down to Soren.”

Soren.

The word sucked the air from the cubic, left Era struggling to breathe.

“It’s only one solar cycle,” Dritan said.

Era placed a hand over her stomach. “This is a mistake. The
Paragon
’s exempt from the draft.”

“Not anymore,” he said. “They’re sending three crews down.”

“When?”

“I have to be at the hangar bay tomorrow. First shift.”

Less than nine hours.
“You can’t go. I’ll talk to Zephyr, have her—”

“No,” he said. “It wasn’t right for us to be exempt in the first place.”

“They’re just doing this to punish you for what those traitors did.”

“The workers on the
London
did their duty. It’s my turn.”

Something broke inside Era, and she jumped off the bunk, tears brimming in her eyes. Her lower abdomen ached in response to her quick movement, and she gritted her teeth. “By ‘workers,’ you mean sublevel workers. You think the president would ever send Tesmee down there? You mean nothing to them. You’re expendable, just a body to use up in the mines. I’m starting to understand why Sam felt like he needed to do what he did.”

“Dammit, Era. Don’t say that kak.”

“Zephyr said they’re not even working on the jumpgate anymore. She thinks they’re expanding the subcity. That we’re never leaving here.” Era lowered her voice. “I didn’t believe her.”

Dritan crossed his arms and gave a slight shake of his head.

Era picked up her boots and hurled them at the door. “Fuck.” They hit with a loud thunk and dropped to the tiles.

She sank to the floor and held her hand to her mouth. Hot tears spilled down her cheeks, and she tasted their salty warmth on her lips.

Dritan knelt in front of her, placing his hands on her shoulders. “I’m going to come back to you.”

Era sniffed. “I bet everyone says that.”

“But I mean it. I will come back. I’m doing my job, and I’ll be here with you when…” he placed his hand over the curve of her belly. “I promise. I’m coming back.”

Era stared into his hazel eyes and forced her jaw to loosen. “How can you promise something like that? Did your parents tell you that, too, before they went out on hull duty?”

Dritan recoiled from her, his face creased with pain.

Era placed her hands on either side of her and dug her fingernails into the spongy, gritty surface of the rubber tiles. “I’m sorry,” she whispered.

Dritan got to his feet and returned to the bunk. He sat there, shoulders hunched, and stared straight ahead. “You knew my job when you decided to pair with me. I’ll never be a tech or a member of the guard. This is what I was born into—what I’ve been trained to do.”

Era had promised herself she’d never shame him, and now she had. She stumbled to her feet and went to him. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I just…I’m scared. But you’re right. You’ll come back. Of course you will.”

When Dritan looked at her, his eyes had tears in them. He took her by the arms and pulled her onto the bunk.

They laid together, the pain between them a living thing, pulsing in the silence. He stroked her hair, and she pressed her ear to the coarse fabric of his suit, listening to the reassuring thump of his heart.

A dull ache throbbed in her chest, a certainty that nothing would ever be right again. If she could do it over, make different choices, she never would’ve asked Zephyr to get them a term here. Things had been simpler on the
London
. Maybe if they were still there, Zephyr’s father could have kept Dritan from the draft.

“Era.” Dritan’s fingers stilled, and he stopped running them through her hair. “Don’t talk about the president, the board—any of it. Please. Just keep your head down and wait for me.”

Era wiped the tears from her cheeks and didn’t answer. What could she say?
I’ll die if I lose you.

“It’ll go fast,” he said. “I’ll be back before you—if you…”

Before I have the baby. If I have the baby.
The thought of what would happen if the baby had the Defect hung in the air between them, unspoken.

“I’m sorry I have to leave you like this.” He placed a hand on Era’s stomach. “I wanted to be here.”

“I don’t want to stay up here without you,” Era said, crying again. “There has to be a way to get you out of this.”

“I have to do my part. Just one solar cycle.” His voice was firm.

One solar cycle. 150 days. 150 chances for something to go very wrong on Soren.

Dritan gently rolled Era off his chest and held himself above her, meeting her eyes. “I will come back to you. And I’ll think about you every second I’m not with you.”

Era’s pulse quickened, and she pulled him close, crushing her lips to his. The pain in her throat eased. He kissed her again, slowly this time, and ran his hand down her body, stopping to cup her breast under her suit. Her nipples hardened against the rough fabric, and she let out a small moan.

A shiver curled down her spine as he brought his lips to her ear and nibbled there. He teased a trail along her jawline with the tip of his tongue, bringing his mouth back to hers.

Era trembled and pressed a hand against his chest. “I need you now.”

He stood, pulled off his boots, and unzipped his suit in one swift movement, never taking his eyes off hers. A sheen of sweat coated his lean muscles. He shrugged his suit the rest of the way off. He was ready for her.

She sat up and yanked on the zipper of her own suit. It stuck, then ripped away, the worn fabric finally giving up.

Dritan pulled her to her feet, and her suit fell into a crumpled heap of ruin on the floor. She stepped out of it and placed her hand against his chest. Faint scars he’d gotten in the sublevels criss-crossed his body, and she traced one of them down his abdomen, her fingertips tingling. He lifted her wrist to his mouth to kiss the infinity tattoo that matched the one on his own wrist.

He crushed his lips to hers and nudged her toward the bunk, hungry for the same release she needed. They fell into it, and she closed her eyes, relishing the feel of his warm body pressed against her, the feel of his tongue as it found her own.

He’d fill her up, make her feel whole, safe, wanted. She’d savor this night. It could be the last they ever had together.

Era sat on their bunk, watching as Dritan stuffed his spare uniform into his bag. Her eyes drifted to the now nearly empty shelf. Only one thing remained. A small folded scrap of exec-standard bedding.

“Mali picked me as her replacement for archivist.” Era forced out the words. “I said yes.”

Dritan hefted his bag and tossed it across his body. He gave her a small, proud smile. “I knew she would.”

He went to the door, but when he hit the button, the door didn’t budge.

“Come here. Watch,” Dritan said. “You need to learn how to fix this now.”

Era reluctantly got up and went to the door.

He slipped a panel off the wall, pulled out a bundle of wires, and twisted the ends of a few, pointing to each one as he did it.

“If these don’t connect, it won’t open.”

Era stared hard at the wires.
Don’t work. Lock us inside. Make Dritan miss his transport.

He inserted the twisted wires back in their spot and hit the button. The door opened.

“Got it now?”

The lump in Era’s throat expanded, and she nodded. Dritan tilted his head to the side, and with a sad smile, he offered his hand. She took it, and he led her into the corridor.

The pit in Era’s stomach grew as each step brought them closer to the hangar bay. She tightened her grip on Dritan’s hand, memorized the feel of his warm touch, the way his larger hand encompassed her small one, how each long finger felt intertwined with her own.

The climb down to zero deck brought back visions of her nightmare. She’d had it again, had lain awake afterward. Dritan wouldn’t be here to keep the nightmares away any longer.

No matter how she wished this wasn’t happening, how she wished she could freeze time and keep him, the bay drew ever closer. And then they were there.

A guard stood outside the doors holding a scanner. Dritan lifted his shift card, and the guard logged it.

Dritan gave it to Era. “Keep it safe. I’ll need it when I get back.”

She nodded mutely and shoved his card in her pocket.

Acrid fumes burned her throat as they stepped into the dim hangar bay. A dozen battered transports were docked here, small and pathetic in a vast space that had been built to hold so many more.

Her nails bit into her palms, and she forced herself to unclench her fists. Stupid to hate machines that were just doing their job. The president and board were the ones sending Dritan down to Soren.

A crowd of colonists and their loved ones gathered at the loading area—tense, waiting. Era recognized most of them from the galley and the personnel files she’d seen at the repository.

As Era and Dritan reached them, a child cried out from somewhere in the crowd. Era’s heart lurched, and she turned toward the source of the sound. The blonde, Janet Lanar, snuggled close to her husband, their small daughter in her arms.

Lucky enough to have a healthy child, then ripped away from her family by the draft. None of this was fair.

Era tore her gaze from the little girl’s face and gripped Dritan’s hand tighter. He squeezed three times. She blinked away tears and squeezed back.
I. Love. You.

Dritan’s mother had taught him that. It was one of the only things he remembered about her. Would he get the chance to hold their child’s hand—show his love without needing a word?

They stood in silence and waited for the transport pilot to begin the boarding process. Her palm grew slick against Dritan’s, but she didn’t let go.

Zephyr hurried through the doors. She rushed over to them, her face red, hand pressed to her side. “I heard at mess. If I had more time, I could’ve sent a comm to my father, or—”

“I wouldn’t have let you.” Dritan narrowed his eyes and shook his head. “I won’t stay here while my crew risks their lives.”

An alarm blared from the transport, and its heavy metal door began its slow descent to the ground. Era’s stomach dropped. Dritan lifted her chin and turned her face away from the transport.

Breathe.
This was it. He’d be gone soon. She needed to remember. She burned his image into her mind. The curves of his face, smooth dark skin, high cheekbones, hazel eyes glistening with tears that matched her own. And that way he looked at her that let her know how much she was loved.

“I’m coming back,” he whispered.

Era nodded. She’d break down in front of everyone if she tried to speak.

The pilot began calling out the list of names. Janet and her family, engaged in a tearful good-bye, stepped into Era’s line of sight.

No. This was happening too fast. She couldn’t let Dritan leave. She had to find a way to keep him here.

“Dritan Corinth,” the pilot called out.

Era’s body went cold, and the pressure in her chest made it hard to breathe. Dritan wrapped his strong arms around her and pressed his lips to hers. Would this be the last time she kissed him?

The embrace ended too soon.

“I love you.” His eyes shone.

“I love you.” Era barely heard her voice.

Dritan’s eyes flicked to her belly, and he rested his hand there for a moment before stepping away. He looked at Zephyr. “You watch out for her.”

“I will. Don’t worry,” Zephyr said.

He nodded, and Era reached up on tiptoes to kiss him once more. He stood straight, threw his shoulders back, and boarded the transport.

Era wiped the tears from her eyes as the transport door closed. The alarm sounded again, and the hangar bay workers ordered everyone to leave.

“Come on. We have to go,” Zephyr said quietly.

Era followed the rest of the family members out of the hangar bay and turned to watch the doors slide closed behind them. The transport started up on the other side, and the metal doors vibrated in response.

He’s going to be fine. He’ll come back. He always comes back.
But the tears came anyway, spilling down her cheeks. None of her thoughts could erase the dread that had taken root in her stomach. Because some primal part of her knew.

She was never going to see Dritan again.